Going Alone

I’ve considered myself pretty independent for the last 4 years or so. I do most things alone, and the things I don’t do alone I do with my mom. My mom has been one of my best friends for the past couple of years, we do lots of things together. Most of my weekends are spent with her because that’s who I’m most comforitable with. But, there are some things that she can’t do with me; I need to do them alone. I’ve been tossing around the idea of attnending a church again now that my running schedule has cleared up and I’m free Sunday mornings. The thing is though, it scares me to go alone.

Now, I grew up going to church, but that was completely different. Growing up there were always kids or youth activites to attend meaning I always had someone else who was going through the same thing and needed a friend. As a young adult I feel lost. Most churches have college groups but then once you graduate you enter a whole new field. A field of individuals that are either “couples” or “singles”. I’m obviously not a couple. The thing that bothers me about the “singles” group is that I feel like it comes with a “HI I’M SINGLE AND WANT TO DATE” sign above me head. Sure, I want to find a husband, but right now I’m content with being alone. I want to find friends, that’s it.

So tomorrow I embark on a new adventure; I’m going to church. Alone. It’s scary, but I know deep down I can do it. I’ll end with a lovely screenshot of my sister’s advice to me going to chruch alone. 13394119_10154306118892904_2779477358942406196_n

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